time will make a hero surface within

Friday, July 11, 2008

this week have been energy draining and i would much appreciate a good night sleep.
today we had band and mr ong didnt come.
marked scores and played a while.
i realised that i really no confidence in playing.
its either cause i cant play.
or im just simply forcing myself to believe i cant play properly.
ahwells. practise makes perfect (:
i still have two more years so let see what happens along the way.
after that went for dinner at lim-kopi and we started talking about what the seniors used to do. seniors ranging from greys to the present yellows and blues.
its always the juniors that remembers what the seniors do and the seniors will forget.
after that i went home. and i slept on the bus again!
lucky i woke up in time. i woke up when the bus was about to leave my stop larh!
then i hurry press the bell and got down. half the bus was looking at me and i bet they thought i was a crazy nut.
you wont fancy someone suddenly waking up from her sleep and runs down the bus.
especially if she looks so panicky.
cause the day before yesterday i also slept on the bus and i wasnt very lucky.
i woke up and found myself in some expressway.
i was like "wah. shit!"
then i got off the next stop and by that time it was already 8 in the night and i had a lot of work to do!
on my left was a park and if i corss the road it would be a forest.
i was on the verge to call my parents until i decided that i could settle this on my own.
i just walked to any bus stop on the opposite side till i found a bus stop which had my bus.
by the time i reached home i was so tired but then again. i got work so there goes the fact that i might have an early night.
this week have been studying for tests, rushing up homework, rushing from here to there, practising for NBC, fighting to keep awake, etc.
and looking at the test scope that the school gave was not one bit comforting.
you should see the amount of test they gave larh.
maybe not as much as sec4s but still. im only a sec2.
which means sec3 and 4 wouldnt be any much better.
its like everything you do counts so even if you want to hand up late or anyhow do some questions you would always be thinking if it would affect my result.
and its so ironic that when i was in sec1 i was complaining about how many tests and assignments there were and now that im in sec2, im like thinking how honeymoon it was in sec1 and i bet when i go sec3, i would be thinking the same about sec2.
and you. stop thinking that you are such a big shoot in my life
cause im telling you that you are not.
stop raising your voice cause you think i will listen to you
cause you are wrong.
the only time i will ever listen to you is when you really know what you are talking about.
there is band prac tomorrow!
the last one before nbc. hope it turns out well (:
NBC in two more days :|

im not willing, so accpet that.

black&white makes grey. @11:09 PM