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Wednesday, May 28, 2008

i having been posting for a long time (:
14 days already = 2 weeks already. actually its about one month
my may achieves are going to be super short ):
have been running everywhere for the past two weeks so the computer have constantly been out of reach for me.
i think im crazy larh. holidays are supposed to be relaxing end up i make myself more busy.
i started a bit on holiday homewoek (: good start!
but then i think i want to complete everything by week 2 of the holidays so tht i can play later on. (:
hahaha. i shall start my day from band camp (:
this year's band camp was quite okay larh.
there was band practise before the camp and then we had dinner.
for once the dinner was filling and there were a lot of leftovers.
i think 4 pieces of pizzas.
then there was noms.
i think a lot of people become quite cute when they are answering the question cause they will do some funny actions and stuff like that.
hahaha. then night games though quite screwed but still quite fun larh.
i think the kidnapping one was the funniest!
i didnt even know i got kidnap cause i paired up with diana to walk up the staircase then the moment we reached the top we bursted out laughing cause it was damn funny.
then we saw jayme and zhuer.
then the next thing was zhu er drag me away then i dont know what happen to diana :|
then i got kidnapped lorh.
then those that were being kidnapped were complaining in the toliet cause it was freaking hot inside.
then we were playing also and laughing.
especially yexin. she was damn funny.
then we had to go into a cubicle each then they switched off the lights and fan then i was talking to sherrilyn cause she was beside me.
we had to open the door if someone knocked and we could scare that person if we wanted.
i wasnted to scare laisum but she refused to open the door by herself so i ended up having the open it for her and i couldnt scare her :|
no fun de. my mission failed.
i wanted to see laisum scream
hahahha. then we went to the haunted house.
we and diana waited damn long. but i ended up laughing the whole way through cause i could recognise each of the ghost so not scary already.
i was laughing throughout the whole thing.
heh heh. but i walked straight into the piano chair and the co cart.
wahhh. damn pain and diana still could laugh about it.
then midnight we went to watch movie.
i think dead slience is damn scary larh.
i got screamed lor (:
christine was covered with anything she could find
actually whatever she could find was only a jacket.
i think that show was scary but somehow i dont think about the show after i watched it.
even if i think of it i wouldnt be scared.
not like last time. watched a ghost story ended up frightened until cannot go toliet :|
then after that played a few games of cards then me, christine and ayu went to do nominations form cause the next morning had to hand up.
me and christine did halfway then i fell asleep.
ayu woke us up and we decided to sleep then wake up then do.
so we sleep next to the piano and i was directly next to it.
attempted to do a few more nominations but was too tired so i decided to dream about it.
the next morning i got woken up by first. ayu. next it was giokqin banging on the piano.
after i woke up i filled in the rest of the nomination form then i me and christine went for breakfast.
had cereal then had a ard time persuading christine seow to eat the chewy junior that the clique bought for her as her birthday present.
in the end, she ate one -_-
then we had conducting. [actually the sec threes]
some of them conduct until damn funny. then some were quite good.
then after that we played pirates and merry widow as a band.
for merry widow. auto-pliot was okay.
when it came to pirates. auto pliot was definitely not okay.
everybody was going like the wrong timing and we ended up needing a conductor. so grace conducted us but it was still no use -_-
wasnt very good in the end.
ahwells. then it was day games.
they always consist of eating disgusting food stuff. some kissing game etc.
and i always hate that kind of game ):
but the captains ball was fun.
everyone was like throwing everything tom dick harry stuff to me and i was like catching one after other and i was shouting to yuqing and jiawen. heh heh.
they are nice secones (:
anyways after that went to celebrate seow's birthday.
we had instant noodles and i slept through the movie. oops.
then had some embarrassing moments with the card games which i wont go into futher detail (:
the next big thing was HILLSONG UNITED CONCERT!!!!
ohmygosh. they rock larh can. at first i wanted to go to the concert after tm but then i decided to meet with grace joel daniel and keith at expo mrt station before tm and be the first batch of people at the holding area so that we would get the best seats
when we went in, me grace and daniel were supposed to be the second batch of holding people but we ended in in the first batch cause junhao benedict davidson moses jiajun timo and joanna were there already so in the end we all ended up at the same place.
we were like 4 hours early and we decided to eat snacks and played card games and loof around.
then went the doors were opened, everybody just like wentcrazy and they all rushed in.
then we got separated for a while but in the end we found each other and we managed to get the front rows and a good view. (: (:
then we went crazy and high and the conert rocked (:
after the concert it was like 10 something already. but we still did not want to go home so we decided to go eat supper at changi airport!
but joanna grace benedict moses junhao jiajun and keith couldnt not join us cause they had to go home so left me joel davidson timo and joel.
then we ate and changi before joel's parents fetched us home since we all live in bishan (:
then daniel was talking aout some weird stuff and we were laughing our heads off (:
reached home around 12 plus. and then i was damn tired.
heh heh. i shall post about jubilate and some other stuff tomorrow since this post is already so freaking long and its late (:
and i havent got a decent sleep in my holidays yet!

why did you give me so much hope
when you had so little faith in me?

black&white makes grey. @8:04 PM

Wednesday, May 14, 2008

i didnt ask for much.
just for a bit of that.
is it that hard to get it done?
why is improving so hard.
i tried my best but you dont understnd.
all you care is not how i feel
but rather how you expect me to be.
i know is my fault
but you dont let me explain.
im such a failure

black&white makes grey. @10:33 PM

Tuesday, May 6, 2008

guess how happy i am??!
hahaha. very very happy.
hehehehehehehehehhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhehehehehe.
cause 5mins ago i was chiong-ing my project.
then once im done and see the finishing product
i feel that god has bless me with so much!!!!
ahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh,
then i jump for joy and scream and i think scared the life out of my bunny and my mama :/
they all thought that i needed to go to IMH :D
thats a good sign that im not depress!!
hahahahahha.
okay. ignore me. im nad :D

black&white makes grey. @11:54 PM

Saturday, May 3, 2008

i think today's sermon was very much appicable.
i think the overcoming series were the most useful ones in my life cause i could relate to them.
like overcoming homework etc.
today was overcoming unforgiveness and i realise that i have got a lot to work on.
i dont expect myself to immediately go "i forgive you!"
but i realise that i should learn how to forgive people even if you know they are going to hurt you again.
i think its going to be quite hard but there's no harm in trying. (:
i mean like can you imagine how many times God forgave us or actually me.
i think everyday he has to at least forgive me once. :|
(oops. i havent been a very good girl)
so if he can why cant i!
forgiveness is an attitude.
it is a decision you make.
To forgive is to love
i think i will always want to remember that (:
it really helps (:
talking about church.
reach at around 11.30 cause me zhiting and lizzie had synth (i dont know the spelling)auditions.
managed to pass it but synth isnt what i thought it would be.
its basically knowing your chords well and improvising (:
hahaha. then joanna zhiting lizzie and i went for lunch or actually asked matt to help us buy then we spend the rest of our time slacking away.
and half the cg didnt come!!
all muggers (: mid-years are coming.
actually i wonder if i would prefer to having mid-years or go through the torment of having numerous tests a week.
hmmm. but if my mum found out that im taking up synth i think she would just rattle on about how i think i have so much time in the world. to take up three different instruments at three different places and three different times.
but piano and synth is quite similar what!
it wont kill me since i enjoy all these kind of stuff so why dont i expand my knowledge (:
its doesnt kill. heh heh.
so now. i think i better get started on my work before my mum finds something to nag at me about (:
too-da-lose!

black&white makes grey. @11:13 PM

Thursday, May 1, 2008

yesterday was kind of the suckest day in this whole year.
i didnt want to get back that test
and i didnt have a good feeling about it too.
whatever larh.
then after i got home things didnt go any better.
that freaking iron dropped on my leg
and it kind of burn me.
and now it hurts like mad.
i dont know how im going to run my napfa tomorrow.
bleah.

nothing goes the way i think it should.
or am i just plain dumb?

black&white makes grey. @1:39 PM