hello world. today is so depressing. especially when im alone and feeling free. cause that means i will have time to think of stuff that i wouldnt think of on a daily bacsis. and it always ends up with a depressing conclusion. not like anyone knows about it. though im not looking forward to friday cause i will just waste my time and money away. and then i have to go through the same old stuff that doesnt help at all. i wonder how spending so much money can delight my parents so much. feel like just ponning the whole thing. cause i dont feel like answering those questions neither do i have the mood to do anything there. considering the fact that i woke up from my dreamland last year. i consider it quite a tortue in having to go back there. and i still remembered what she said when i refused to do anything. i never go there willingly. im just obliged to go there and do whatever that i have to do. then i realised how i got quite affected by it though i always say it doesnt affect me at alll. such a liar
went for self prac today. wasnt very productive though. got quite frustrated with myself cause i cant play properly and whatever sound comes out. it doesnt sound nice at all. i cant even tune my note properly. i dont know whats wrong with me today. then went to thomson plaza to study. managed to get biology done and feeling very not productive. i went home to take a short nap. then i stupidly contiune thinking about depressing stuff. i really feel like avoiding it so much. it just doesnt help at all. ohh no. there is a fuel hike protest in KL wonder how my parents are doing hope they enjoy themselves (:
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black&white makes grey. @11:13 PM
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