time will make a hero surface within

Saturday, June 28, 2008

its been quite a while since i have been here.
the reason being is either busy or lazy.
today was st nicks open house! (:
i was supposed to meet jiahui at 8 in school to find our chinese textbooks cause we left them in class and class is most probably locked which means we wont have our text books which means we will get punishment ):
but i ended up being late. but my daddy fetched me (:
we both end up meeting at 8.44 -_-
one mintue before class starts.
actually the chinese live demo class started at 9 but to make sure that we are all early su lao shi asked us to come at 8.45
me and jiahui were trying to stretch in class to draqg the tables nearer to the windows so that we could take the textbooks from underneath the table.
we saw christine seow on the way and she helped us pulled the tables too.
out of the three that we pulled (wei en's. yuenping's and wenyan's) we only got one textbook so we needed another one.
i was trying like hell to get wanjing's table and after all the stretching and stuff i managed to grab the leg and pulled the table.
hahaha. then we got the other textbook.
but my hand hurted a lot after that. :|
guess i overstretched it.
chinese lesson was okay. quite fun. we had the chengyu game that su lao shi created to help us in our tingxie next week.
and he filmed the whole lesson down.
if you noticed, the group that i was in (jiahui christine seow maryanne cheryl valerie) we didnt participated often.
heh heh. never study larh!
ended up we last group!! so sad.
and somemore something so embarrssing happened to me that su lao shi said that he was going to tell his classes next year! ):
dont tell you :P
and somemore it got taped down by his camera.. bleah. hahaha
after that i changed into band uniform and went for comm meeting and we managed to finish up the board which turned out to be quite nice (:
weiyun and joan didnt buy macs for me so i was bugging laisum to treat me (:
and we played around with the band board for a while then it was berato.
so embarrassing. sarah tan and weiyun can be my witnesses.
cause i was changing into band shoes halfway when yiing huey called for berato so i was like wearing one side of my sock.
so i ended up berato-ing with white shoes and one side with socks one side without socks.
then when yiing huey and the WOs started checking they were all telling me about my shoe. make me so embarrssed! and i was the only one with while shoes!
want to hide also cannot.
moved everything to the forum and we were behind time.
didnt tune properly cause i was quite blur and today's playing was so horrible with a big EEEEEEE.
and it was freaky hot hot hot :|
then towards the ending i was like going to fall asleep anytime sooner.
i guess this year's open house wasnt very good. and there were not a lot of audience.
mostly stnicks girls giving their support.
but still. i think that is quite pleasant (:
after that we slacked at the band room and charlyne bought a dart board for our section !
my score is 260. HA HA HA
our section went crazy over it and we started throwing the balls and arrows at the dart board and made a hell lot of noise.
heh heh. then while waiting for haiching, we slacked at the band room even more. and while christine sijia kialin ayu and i slept on the bench, charlyne was busy throwing arrows at the dart board.
guess she is so sad in parting with it (heh heh)
then i chased her around the band room cause she woke me up and end up i got locked outside. cheryl saved me!
then we went amkhub for section dinner.
at first i only wanted to buy ice kachang cause i got dinner at home then i decided to eat cause the food was so tempting (:
after that had icekachang anyways and christine officially owes me ice kachang funds!
then christine left and we went ntuc.
we were all staring at this mop demo. and i think the mop is quite cool though im not the one going to use it.
it can soak up all the water and the floor will be lke damnm dry but the mop looks like it doesnt contain water and when the person squeeze then so much water came out!
haahahah. i helping them promote you know!
bleah. today has been quite eventful. hopefully the week ahead will be interesting. (:
p/s fats dont like you!bleah! fats dont like you! :P :P :P

its been a long game of hide and seek

black&white makes grey. @9:18 PM

Sunday, June 15, 2008

managed to sleep till 11 but it wasnt a very fruitful one.
i only slept for 6 hours considering the fact that i slept at 5 yesterday.
thinking of some stuff or actually i stumbled on some document that i shouldnt have read
actually it wasnt suppose to be there.
i was looking for some tape then i saw it and since it concerns me i just thought i have a look at it.
guess i shouldnt have. ahhh whatever.
i didnt know that it was burden cause you didnt tell me.
i didnt know how much you wasted on me cause you didnt tell me
i didnt know how stupid i was to believe you.
i didnt know you were just trying to make me normal.
i didnt know you knew that much about my condition
cause now i know what you kept from me
anyways today i spent most of the day getting the house cleaned up so i kind of wasted my time or actually afternoon.
managed to get down to some serious business
and the only business i have is doing my work.
guess today will be sleeping late again.
holidays dont seem like holidays or at least they pass so fast
hmmmm. still thinking of whats left to do.
the more i think about it the more there doesnt seem time to do them..
ahhh. i hope i dont have to do last minute work!
the only thing that made me happy today was that my mama bought a new bag for me.
and i think shoes and clothes (:
HAPPY FATHER'S DAY, DADDY!

its too much for my own good.
i wished i havent known
all is lost.

black&white makes grey. @9:29 PM

Saturday, June 14, 2008

today was mugging session number 1
its kind of late to start but its better than not starting at all (:
the more i flip through my homework the more im scared that i kind of forgotten everything.
abd i dont know how my study mood feels like already. this is bad
very very bad.
and there is a lot of homework to do and i only got one week left.
blame it on bad time management i guess
i plan to complete most of them by sunday which is tomorrow so i got time to do external stuff.
if not i have to go mad and squeeze everything into the remaining week.
and stupidly friday is out and as usually waste of time.
i confirm going to get a lot of scolding from them again cause im doing what i ought to do.
not like i have any hope from doing them. it just becomes worse.
bleah. anyways today went to meet christine seow to pass her some foolscape paper.
then we chatted a bit and then i went to meet my aunt.
saw grace jean and christina there. kind of shocked
didnt expected them to be at J8
after that i started my mugging session.
i wouldnt say that its very productive but i also wouldnt say that its not productive.
i hope tomorrow would be better.
my mum bought stuff for my in malaysia.
yay yay. finally im receiving new things cause this time i didnt have time to enjoy the great singapore sales.
actually, when did i ever enjoyed it ,
and sadly tomorrow there isnt any church services.
that means it has been quite long since i have been to church ):
guess that means it time i ought to reflect on what actually i ave been doing for the whole holidays.
i wished that holidays could be longer ...

how do you know i havent tried
a lost hope can never be retrieved

black&white makes grey. @11:34 PM

Friday, June 13, 2008

hello world.
today is so depressing. especially when im alone and feeling free.
cause that means i will have time to think of stuff that i wouldnt think of on a daily bacsis.
and it always ends up with a depressing conclusion.
not like anyone knows about it.
though im not looking forward to friday cause i will just waste my time and money away.
and then i have to go through the same old stuff that doesnt help at all.
i wonder how spending so much money can delight my parents so much.
feel like just ponning the whole thing.
cause i dont feel like answering those questions
neither do i have the mood to do anything there.
considering the fact that i woke up from my dreamland last year.
i consider it quite a tortue in having to go back there.
and i still remembered what she said when i refused to do anything.
i never go there willingly.
im just obliged to go there and do whatever that i have to do.
then i realised how i got quite affected by it though i always say it doesnt affect me at alll.
such a liar

went for self prac today.
wasnt very productive though.
got quite frustrated with myself
cause i cant play properly and
whatever sound comes out. it doesnt sound nice at all.
i cant even tune my note properly.
i dont know whats wrong with me today.
then went to thomson plaza to study.
managed to get biology done and feeling very not productive.
i went home to take a short nap.
then i stupidly contiune thinking about depressing stuff.
i really feel like avoiding it so much.
it just doesnt help at all.
ohh no. there is a fuel hike protest in KL
wonder how my parents are doing
hope they enjoy themselves (:

the truth cant be more hurting

black&white makes grey. @11:13 PM

Thursday, June 12, 2008

this whole week havent been really concentrating on my homework.
partly cause i went to watch movie on monday. and had piano lesson
and monday was my only free time can ):
and i didnt stay at home.
then tues had band practise.
i nearly died there. im so glad im still living.
it was a living horror larh. okayy. actually not so bad (:
then wednesday went back to self prac to avoid that living horror from happening again.
woke up super early cause i felt like waking up and enjoyed a lonnnnng hot bath.
then when i decided to leave the house early. all the lucky things have to happen to me!!
i managed to catch my mrt without waiting.
like just enter the station then the train there already.
then when i just reached my bus stop then the bus just came.
thats why i was 20mins early and i sat at macs to rot till rachel tay and christine came to rot with me (:
i wished all those stuff can happen to me when im late.
and it always doesnt thats wh im either very early or very late.
haiiiiiiiiiiiiiii
and we ate macs for breakfast then we went to pack section bench.
its so shiny and clean now and we found a lot of stuff that im quite amuse about.
like 1991 stuff and photos.
so coooooooooooooool. heh heh
then after that went to self prac.
then today i came 15mins late cause as i said. everytime im late. i always missed the mrt train and the bus -_-
self prac for a while before going for comm meeting.
at the way im looking at all the punishments. i bet im going to break a lot of them in the near future
then had band prac.
today was so much better than tues.
at least miss sia was in a good mood (: (:
and tomorrow we are going for self prac again.
how wonderful are my holidays.
its one more week to school reopen and i havent been focusing on my studies.
i think the last week will be spent mugging like shit.
and the holidays seems to be going by very quickly.
and next friday i wouldnt be freee.
wah. shit. that means i got one day lesser to mug.
great rachel great
and my parents are going malaysia tomorrow for church camp.
leaving my brother and i with my aunt and the house alon eof r 4 days.
i guess i will miss them. but still.. its a wonder how i will cope without them.
lets see then say heh heh.
my brother was like laughing at how my parents are soo chicken feets when it comes to packing for camp.
cause they havent been going for one since like secondary school so they dont know how to pack their stuff into the luggage.
so my brother was like. "just think that you are going on a vacation"
then immediately my parents pack like they very experineceed like that.
my brother was. "wahh. i didnt know our parents so high class. camp dont know how to pack. say one word vacation they all know how to pack"
hahahaha. that was damn funny (:
anyways go some homework to chiong!

its only me standing on the boat now

black&white makes grey. @11:05 PM

Monday, June 9, 2008

hahaha. today i could finally feel the feeling of being free!
its such a nice feeling but im not used to it truthfully.
cause the past two weeks have been rushing here and there.
not having enough sleep and just feel so contented if i even have 5 hours of sleep
guess that life is temporary stop for a while.
for this two weeks im going to try to concentrate on my studies so that i have enough rest before the term's rush breaks in again.
went to watch narnia with weiting today.
i think its quite a good show and i especially love the fighting scenes.
everyone looks sooooo good when they fight (:
okay whatever. then i rushed back for piano lesson.
later i fell asleep on the counch for a while.
bleah. tomorrow is the first band prac without the yellows ):
feeling scared.
lucky having self prac tomorrow before if not i think i might die.
at most faint from horror (:

its only a bridge
that keeps us apart (:

black&white makes grey. @10:39 PM

Sunday, June 8, 2008

POP was yesterday ):
and its officially over which means the sec4s are officially passed out.
its quite hard to imagine band without the sec4s though.
really hard. but i dont have to imagine for too long.
there is band pract on this tues. thats when i will find out ):
we had POP in MPR1 room and before that i was trying to get my blazer back from charlyne but she did not want to give it back to me.
ahwells. et greens were standing together!
actually it wasnt very simple.
we took so long just to stand together cause there was constantly someone doing something weird.
i shall not specify my 8 years friend. huh huh (:
though it was in air conditioned rooms but i was still feeling hot.
hahaha. could feel the tension in the air but im happy for the blues that all of them got posts!
and beig assistant Quarter master came as a shock to me.
cause i didnt expect to get any post.
another then christine seow constantly reminded me about the bet that we make i really wasnt convinced that i would get a post.
a bit the squad so big and there are really a lot of people better than me.
some posts came very unexpectedly. like really never cross my mind before.
anyways congrats to all post holders and jiayou for the squad! (:
after that i was being attacked by the yellows with dongran annnnnd charlyne trying to draw on my face at the same time. :|
i ended up having a black face. cause charlyne enjoys herself drawing dots and lines using BLACK marker somemore.
and when we played "when you believe" for the sec4s my mouthpiece had black ink on it cause of all the drawing.
anyways i was kind of lost in the song. that was a bad omen. :|
but i like the starting and the ending part. the middle was like shittttt.
after that went to canteen and i stupid girl conviniently forgot to bring my POP presents cause i left them on my freaking dinning table ):
i sad already larh. hahahaha.
we exchange presents but i felt so bad when people from my squad gave me something cause i didnt prepare anything for them.
nevermind. i shall do it next year.
then ate POP cake then we left for sijia's house.
i was practically falling asleep while walking there cause we were walking at such a slow pace and i was really really very tired.
i slept for 4-5 times in sijia' house. oops. and i bathed there too.
something embarrassing happened but i shant elaborate about it. its embarrassing for a reason (:
and charlyne surprisingly became very nice to us until we thought that it was weird.
hahahaah. charlyne BBQ-ed all the food and she made cheese sotong balls (:
yum yum. anyways have been growing fat considering the time that we all ate.
like around 1am can.
after that we reached haiching's house around 11 plus i think and we rushed the POP stuff for a while before we played in the guest rooms till around 4 or 5 i think then dongran and christine slept on the big while i slept on the snaller bed.
then when sijia and kialin came in. i jumped onto the bigger bed which means dongran me and chrsitine were sharing A bed and it was like cannot move at all.
then the next day i got woken up by cheryl at 9!!!!
so early can.
and i was still very tired,
we ate breakfast-cum-lunch at 11 and we took like 2 hours to prepare to go to escape theme park. heh heh.
i slept on the bus to tampines and poor chrisitne dropped her sweet talk.
then we took a cab to escape.
played there and it was kind of boring though the rides were okay but its like so small and so little to choose from
and two rides. the nicer ones sadly were close for maintence.
we went to the haunted house first and somehow i became the front person and i couldnt find chrsitine either. sorry...
then i was pushed into the haunted house again alone.
it was okay larh. though a bit scary cause i was all alone but i couldnt find the ghost. the human one.
then we played the rainbow and it was the most hilarious ride i have ever sitted on.
i was practically laughing at dong ran throughout the whole ride and i had stomach pain later from laughing.
after escape went to VCH for elaine's concert.
i think all of us fell asleep.
i fell asleep for the first half except for the princess mononoke song cause it was damn nice.
then rest me and christine fell asleep.
heh heh.
but the second part was lame and interesting.
but the last one i was like daydreaming already.
actually wanted to go supper with evonne and celeste but we decided to go back early.
wanted to sleep on the bus but i didnt know why i couldnt.
sijia claims she touched my head but its a wonder how i didnt feel it.
and i hit my poor head against the ceiling. ):
we bathed and had secton cake which was delicious and then had section talk until 5.
half the time we were talking crap though.
heh heh. then me and christine was squashed into the smaller bed.
again. i couldnt move at all.
then the next day we all went home.
i wonder how band practises would be like without the yellows.
but hahaha. i shall work hard and make life in band unregrettable (:
good luck to the yellows!

dont push it too far
i have my limits too

black&white makes grey. @11:43 PM

Monday, June 2, 2008

okay. i think my computer was lagging or something like that.
the most recent and previous post ws suppose to be posted in 1st of june
but apparently its on 28th of may so ahwells. its going to make my may achieves a bit more longer but i didnt get my june achieves (:
hahaha. thats why im posting this super short one!
the one about jubilate....
i shall post it tomorrow larh.
a bit too late to do anything else but sleep
still have to wake up early tomorrow leh ):

black&white makes grey. @1:30 AM