time will make a hero surface within

Friday, September 28, 2007

gah. i should be studying.
but i shall rest till 9 then i start doing notes for bio and chem.
cause im seriously tired and if i sleep i would only wake up the next morning and many hours would be wasted. so i shall rest.
today was ok.
no papers were given back and lessons carry on per normal,
then went with weiyun to the nearby hawker centre and eat chicken rice and ice kachang:)
i like the pink colour one. its so sweet.
then i saw sandy and borrowed $6 from her. opps.
dont worry. i WILL pay you back.
then we went to amk hub and i bought the orange small bottle and stickers :))
then went home through the long way
the sercuity guard keep asking me which way was i going..
hmm. then i was planning to get some rest at home
but ended up having to deliever my geog textbook to weiting.
who realises that she gave her sec1 textbook away.
haha. see. told you to keep your sec1 textbook though you are sec2 now :))
you better treat it properly if not my geog textbook will complain to me.
and i need it back by sunday night!
haha. we were supposed to discuss science with each other
but apparently weiting and sarah were trying to distress so i just laugh along.
well. it cant be helped since im the dumbest there.
considering that sarah is in IP programme and she is sec1 yet she is learning up to sec4 stuff.
and weiting is apparently sec2 to haha. she cant be dumber than me.
but dont worry, i shall work hard.
then now im slacking.
sighs. its going to be a SCIENtific weekend ahead.

black&white makes grey. @8:28 PM

Thursday, September 27, 2007

tuition today was enjoyable ;))
we were having revision cause the other poeple is starting their examinations tomorrow.
and so me and alicia just drifted with the flow.
and the best was that the compre passage was about a band competition, 5pages long.
thats why i was enjoying myself.
haha. the best was that the main character was playing the tuba :))
its rare to find a story like that. if noly i could keep the passage :/
but i learn a lot of new phrases from there.
but yeah. i spent half the time going into dreamland imagining the band competition from the descriptions given. so i was lost half way through the story. opps.
morale of the story. dont give me a passage about band or its good as not listening to the teacher.
and there was one part of the story that managed that the band that won was so happy that they started throwing their instruments into the air.
i was trying to imagining what it would look like if the whole band tried throwing their instruments in the air.
i think we would have to attend a lecture for a year.
especially if you tried throwing up a tuba :/
i think you might kill the person.
haha. then the next passage drasticall change into a jungle.
so anti climax.
but yeah. today was one fantastic day :)) smiles for tomorrow
we must also learn to cope with disappointments along the road of endeavour
because in the very losing,
we achieved a kind of winning.
even in defeats, there are laurels to be won.
accept defeat with dignity and discipline.
RACHEL REMEMBER THAT

black&white makes grey. @11:13 PM

i feel so relax now.
but its not for long.
there is still tuition and two more review tests to go.
and so i must think that i have so much time and decide to slack.
i must start early and start piling up my brain cells with science notes and facts.
but i shall relax for a moment.
before tuition cause i am utterly tired and im not planning to fall asleep during tuition.
simply. i have no reason to.
there is cca standown so i shouldnt be so rushed and so worn out.
and im feeling cold now.
i stupidly on the aircon without realising that its raining cats and dogs and i dont know how to off it.
its so freezing i rather wish there was sun.
haha. slack slack.
today was heart-racing.
i reached school early :))
and started doing maths. i suddenly have the urge to do so.
and then i was doing maths until it was time for morning jog.
gah. i hate indoor route. though its shorter and you can slack on the staircases.
there is no sun and you might slipped on the staircases and having hundreds of people stepping on you. :/
and worse, i get headaches after that.
cause everyone is so packed together i bang my head against claudia's 2 times and a lot of times against random people.
i should be careful. i for got that there was maths test later :/
then after recess, we waited outside MPR1 for miss chan. cause the sec4s were collecting their results. so yeah. we waited sliently.
i was about to walk to zhangdi then suddenly the door flew open.
scared the life out of me.
i was so close to that door.
guess it turned out bad for some of them :/ cheer up:))
haha. after that we did this convo thing and it was funny!
sometimes i look forward to lit lessons :)) a good start to a good result :))
i realised that i am always acting a a gangster. ah lian.
o.O haha.
then music lesson was slacking. cuase we didnt have much time for the music test so only register 1 and 2 went for it :)) yay
i still got 1 more week to practise.
and i need to pracitse my intrument. it has been sitting there like a display ;/
haha. i love sicence
i love science
i love science.
RACHEL MUST MUG. SO GO MUG NOW.

black&white makes grey. @5:20 PM

Tuesday, September 25, 2007

times are ok for the past few days
studied for geog and history like mad. and now im resting.
after friday i realised the meaning of "whats done is done"
sighs. im not planning to brood over that but maybe it depends
sighs. well at least my science is good.
i now come to appreciate the swing and the parks.
well. thats the places i dwell when im usually on the wrong side of life.
haha. next is maths and im not looking forward to it
yeah. im practising. doing exercise like mad. but the results of improvement will only show in the marks.
i hope i will not be disappointed.
hope so.
haha. these few days have been writing a lot of letters, to many people.
and well. going crazy.
i shall treasure these letters.
becuase i didnt in the primary side.
ahwells. its better to start late then not starting at all.
so yeah. maths!
here i come :))
you have been good
you've been very good.
looking through life is just like reading a book.
different emotions.
different feelings.
different memories :))

black&white makes grey. @9:38 PM

Saturday, September 22, 2007

today sucked like nothing else
well. just the morning to be exact.
but it affected my mood throughout the whole day.
i was practically not listening to any lessons including miss chan's one
and i didnt get anything into my head either.
i only stared at the clock which moves so stupidly slow.
i sucked.
i got HCL paper back today.
i didnt have a choice whether i wanted it or not.
it just come and the effect doesnt go.
no matter how hard i try, it ends up getting worse.
so whats the point of trying so hard and making your eyes go all heavy and your hands tired when all you get is a freaking **.
chinese WAS my best subject.
i rather lived in the past for 1 more second, and i will go treasure it cause
right now, my life is getting worse.
stupid HCL. why cant you just wait a little longer and let me get ovfer with the other tests before you go raiding my brain.
and i still have to face my mother. well. at the most.
i wont live to see tomorrow. erps.
and i wont have the urge to smile very often anymore. i dont see a reason to rejoice over my marks.
i'll just prepare for my funeral when PPR is return. ( i shouldn't be thinking so far)
anyways. thanks for the letter. the people sitting directly behind me.
i will write back. dont worry.
shoots. im owing people 7 letters in total.
but seriously, im not in the mood to write. the only thing that is swimming in my brain is the stupid HCL mark.
well. at least mugging today was peoductive. especially sitting in the sun and getting roasted.
wells. i might as well just bury my face into my pillow and throw my HCL paper out of the window.
so yeah. byebye

since its already that bad. i might as well just give up.
it doesnt reallly make a difference to me anymore.
does it?
i just know that i wont be enjoying the rest of it.

black&white makes grey. @1:16 AM

Thursday, September 20, 2007

it has been a week since last post.
and my dear tagboard is dead.
haiz. had been spending my time mugging for review tests.
sighs. i dont think that i did very well but. shall have more confidence in myself
english paper today is fine. i managed to finish in time and rewrote the summary 2 times.
and heard that chinese paper might be coming back tomorrow.
erps. i dont want!! i think i didnt get pass my cloaze passage though.
and luo is putting pressure on me.
she keeps saying i have faith in you. so everytime i dont meet her expectations. i feel bad
and i hate that feeling.
haha. mugmugmug people.
have been mugging in school with friends.
and well. met some of my old friends and i caught up with them.
still chatty with each other.
haha. hope to see them more often :))
i kind of straighten out my thoughts.
i shall pay attention to class and write more letters.
talking about letters... i owe a lot of people letters.
like hmm. people around me.
and i still having done my survey. opps.
better get it done soon.
poofs/

black&white makes grey. @11:02 PM

Thursday, September 13, 2007

who do you think you are?
im not always doing the wrong thing for pete's sake.
well. unless you seen it by yourself. stop accusing me.
it just so happens that im there when it happened and just because i dont know why its reacting in that manner. i have to take the blame.
oh great. like i have nothing better to do than listen to you ordering me around.
and im sick of you screaming here and there.
im not going to bother about you
i shall just move on with life. blame me for all you want.
i will just simply take the blame and get scolded for it.
sighs.
i should actually stopped scolding random people on my blog.
its kind of weird. hahaha
stupid beetle.
hahaahahah. yesterday was a fun day whoot.
chem test.
yeah. i think i did ok and i managed to think of water bath in the last 5mins.
and during mock chinese paper today. i was practically doing it at a snail's pace.
i shouldnt have. i was a practice meant for me to test myself.
i just blew it up. but sighs. at least i finish it. haha
i shall stop slacking and thinking that i always have tomorrow to cover up for what i have wasted and mug like shit and whatever.
frog. i thought i heard one.
i must be dreaming.
and so TINGXIE. here i come.

black&white makes grey. @12:25 AM

Wednesday, September 12, 2007

yesterday was haha. kind of heart-pumping
there was chem test in the morning. and the teacher was super fast in starting the exam.
until only after i receive the test paper that i realise that i was still looking through my notes.
hmmm. after the test. everything was quite calm.
band was. erps. fun and okay.
miss sia wasnt here and so mr choy took us.
part of the band room was in darkness and well. i was sitting in the darkness.
i realised that ET was the only section in the darkness. kind of a funny sight.
it wasnt really like cannot see anything but just dark.
i got lost play livin' la vida loca cause i was sight reading and well, i was trying hard to figure out where the heck was the squad playing till.
then sectionals, sijia me and chirstine cleared up the bench cause we cou;dnt stand the mess.
and now the bench looks quite neat :))
and i managed to practise sousa spartans livin' la vida loca and singapore rhaspsody.
haha. quite happy with myself.
walked home with choo today cause i didnt feel like staying in school to eat.
well.
i have homework to be done and i should be mugging.
so, yeah. time for me to go.
and i was doing quite a bit of reflection on myself. thats what i usually do when im alone.
which means 1/4 of a day at least
i dont even need to plan for a time to do a reflection.
it just comes naturally to me.
like everythime i think im not up to standard or expectations. i will start reflecting for who knows what reason.
like i have time like that.
but yeah. hmmm. i realised that im seriously not up to my own expectations and what i set off to do at the beginning.
im not a good comforter.
im not a good daughter. always making my mama so pissed off with me.
im always getting irritated on weekends with my family for always fighting. when i shouldnt.
im not a good leader. i just feel that im not. like not up to my expectations and others.
im not a good student. always dreaming during lessons. and choosing to slack when i could study and doing rush hour work and get so worked up with my results when i know that it was entirely my stupid fault.
and im not been reading my bible recently. i need to talk to god. serious.
hmm. should stop here.
yeah. i shall study.
making the A1s all run to me.
more like me running towards them.
sighs. my mama will be pissed again if i dont get them.

black&white makes grey. @1:04 AM

Monday, September 10, 2007

look at what i found while searching for information on my project!
whoots. haha. found the chinese names of a lot of brass instruments.
and they look so shiny. o.O
haha. i didnt know there were 7 different types of tubas.
haha. i wonder which type im playing :))
clickhttp://http://www.yamaha.com.cn/cmslive/product/products_list.jsp?fid=167&sid=195

black&white makes grey. @12:59 AM

Sunday, September 9, 2007

什么都别说
我不想懂
之少我，还拥有美好的梦

black&white makes grey. @11:55 PM

hmmm. i havent had the time to post on this blog for about. hmmm. four days??!
not so alarming though. when term4 starts, i bet im not going to be able to post on this blog for at least about a week. well, at least till the review tests are over anf gone.
haha. it will be term4 in half an hour or so.
and i still have incomplete homework.
i suck. always chionging at the last hour. well, i have better got to learn that this type of attitude to work isnt going to get me anywhere i wish to go.
hmm. and term4 means waking up at 5.45am everyday and walking with a heavy bag to school
having to rush here, run there to get things done.
having to remember to wear my monitor tie before i for get and start to painc.(dont worry. it only happened once but doesnt mean that it wont happen again)
hmmm. and having to sleep at unearthly hours due to piles of homework.
having mugging sessions. yay
and hmmm. getting scolded by teachers ( havent happened to me but it will soon, ihope not)
hmmm. and well. tests and tests and results and panic and stress and going high for no reasons.
and a change of seats.
sighs.
well.
guess its time to run the final race for the year :)
p/s good luck to exams people :)) mug hard.
stop fighting over small little things and venting your anger on me and my brother.
yeah. you provide everything for us but that doesnt give you the rights to push us around.
and stop fighting for goodness sake's
everyday when i come back tired and need a rest. you always start fighting like no one's business and well. disturb me.
everytime i want to study you guys have to fight and kill me at the same time.
well. if you guys love fighting so much. go outside and fight for all i care.
at least spare a thought for the niehbours and quit getting everyone pissed off.
yeah. and conserved your energy for something more meaningful.
sighs. life isnt getting anywhere better.

black&white makes grey. @11:19 PM

Wednesday, September 5, 2007

oh hello world.
yesterday was band. it started at 9
i reached school at 7. rahh.
more like i woke up at 7. haha. it makes a lot of difference.
and so, i started doing the warm ups and stuff.
the set up was kind of messy.
haha. but it was a whole load of fun. especially when we helped each other.
everyone was kind of happy.
until i found out that there was one row missing. and miss sia was only a few feet away.
gosh, so we hurry hurry throw some chairs in and the ETs became sitting so close to the trombones that they could choose to stab us with the trombone slide.
kind-hearted souls, they didnt. yeah.
and so we spent most of our time doing the warm ups and i thought miss sia was in quite a good mood. ahaha.
great news.
then we spend the rest of the time playing sousa. i love the starting. not so much of the ending though. haha.
but i love sousa. then half way playing it, i saw haiching kialin and hmm. is it jayme walking past the forum. haha. their green tshirts were very hard to miss.
i thought they left long ago??!
well, at least i saw them walking towards the forum. and then suddenly they appear again.
gave me a fright. now i know why everone loves playing hide and seek in this school
its big enough to scare people. haha.
going back to band. miss sia let us off for sectionals but some sections stayed back.
she wanted them. and my section was one of them.
jeez. she made us repeat bar42-50. and wah. i didnt really like that part though.
and thus. i shall not be coming to band on thurs due to something that i would rather choose to shut up about. and so people who knows/.
DONT VISIT ME. YOU HEAR ME??! YOU UNDERSTAND??!
yes. i know you understand. good
and because dumb dumb chengmei tagged at my blog. i am obliged to do this quiz.
dumb dumb chengmei. your fault!
here is the quiz. haha
list out your top 5 birthday presents you wish for:
1. family and friends to be pink in health:)
2.hmm. a new slipper. i dont have a decent one:(
3.my lovely bunny to be fat and ROUND
4.play my tuba well:))
5. well. of course good PPR for years and years to come((:

1. the person who tag you is?
dumb dumb chengmei
2. your relationship with her/him is?
senior; friend?!;someone that bullies me
3. your 5 impressions of her/him
funny; amusing; commical; friendly; evil
4. the most memorable thing she has done for you?
hmm. lend me her dictionary?!
5. the most memorable words she has said to you?
erps. "ahhhhhhhhhhhh" -does that count?
6. if she becomes your lover, you will?
i will run 10rounds round the track.
7. if he/she becomes your lover, things she has to improve on will be?
well. be nicer to me((:
8. if he/she becomes your enemy, you will?
i will start laughing and rolling on the floor. i cant imagine.
9. if he/she becomes your enemy, the reason will be?
she is a bully. she bullies me :/
10. the most desired thing you want to do for her now is?
hmm. avoid her trombone slide((: i think its more for me. erps. i will feel bored and stalk her. yeah.
11. your overall impression of her is?
amusing. she can act in a movie and entertain me((:
12. how do you think people around you will feel about you?
i smile for 24/7. i dont. not in my sleep at least
13. the character you love of yourself is?
cheerful. yeah. i dont like sadness. shoo
14. on the contrary, the character you hate of yourself is?
hmm. i cant control my tears. its embarrassing.
15. the most ideal person you want to be is?
hmm. myself lar. i love myself yeah. if not i shall just be a piece of poop:/
16. for people that care and like you, say something to them.
thanks people. haha. erps. you want a hug?
17. pass this quiz to 10 people that you wish to know how they feel about you:
1.weiyun
2.claudia
3.jiahui
4.sijia
5.christine seow
6. christine lim
7.belle
8.jia xian
9.sabrina
10.sinbing.

i shall continue with the rest of the quizz tomorrow. im dead beaten.
byebye

black&white makes grey. @1:48 AM

Tuesday, September 4, 2007

oh shoots.
im 3 mins late.
weiyun's irthday is over.
sorry weiyun.

hmmm. i started on my studies.
not a lot though.
cause i have no motivation.
eveytime i find my motivation, my mum erasers it all away.
i want to do my work. i want to mug.
but i cant. somehow. i wasn't what i used to be
i used to be study straight for 4hours and enjoying it so much.
i want that. A LOT. especially now.
when the review tests are here.
but now. everytime i study for lika an hour, i feel so no life
and just feel like throwing everything away.
sighs. life goes on.
i will buck up.
i will get all my A1s back.
i dont care if i study for 24hours straight.
im not going to care if i have eaten or not.
im going to study.
im going to pass,
im going to make my parents proud.

you say you wanted me to do well.
but you never gave me your support.
when i get good marks
you ask me if i cheat.
if i didnt meet your expectations.
you scold me like i just killed someone.
what do you want me to do.
i have a limit.
if you didnt know that.

black&white makes grey. @12:06 AM

great day!
TODAY IS WEIYUN'S BIRTHDAY
and we celebrate it around singapore/.
i shall blog about it tomorrow.
im too tired now.

black&white makes grey. @12:03 AM

Sunday, September 2, 2007

hmm. yesterday was a whole load of fun.
was out the whole day till 11pm in the night.
so i was to tired to post.
yesterday. was SENTOSA TELEMATCH.
i arrived there half and hour's late cause i leave the house late.
shoots. sorry guys if i have cause any inconvinence.
hahah. after that i realised that in my rush. i wore SHOES.
SHOES to palawan beach.
i must be kidding myself.
in the end. i walked bare footed everywhere and it was kind or hurtful.
played many weird games but it was fun.
like table soccer and captain's ball/
it wasnt really captain's ball.
this is how you actually play it:) you can try it.
there are cones everywhere. and two goal posts. one captain per team and then the rest will stand at a cone with your opponent. one on one. haha
then underneath the cone is your item that you are to snatch with your opponent,
well, items including; dead fish, soap, watermelon, cabbages, eggs and milk bombs.
then if you snatch it from your opponents successfully. haha. pass it to your team mates and into the goal post. well. opponents. INTERCEPT:)
hmm. i didnt get to catch/throw any dead fish. it was always on the other side of the arena:(
but haha, i still managed to brust a milk bomb and an egg.
snatched a soap and cabbage, haha
lizzie is a good opponent. so is joanna. both are in netball. tough competitors.
and sorry joanna. i think my knee is a bit too hard. opps. drank too much milk
and so, life goes on. we played table soccer,
you know the table you play soccer in. the turning thingy.
haha. same concept. we cant move forward or backwards. only sideways.
and we have to move together. kind of funny, and thrillng.
haha. after that i was being thrown into the sea by a lot of people.
i think i was thrown in like 8times. cause their mission is to make me get wet totally.
hmm. kind of fun in the sea. i had my fun too in throwing people in:))grins
then we sand buried esmond. haha. pastor dave mann took a photo. beware.
overall. i enjoyed myself.
after that. hmm. went vivo with esmond bella zhiting dexter moses and bryan.
we ate at super dog and bella was pissed off. haha. funny.
the dexter moses and bryan left and the rest of us went to the rooftop and played in the pool.
then esmond went home and so did the rest of us. haha
then i came home feeling not that tired so had a conference call with seow choo and sijia until 12. wow. more like 1am in the morning. sighs.
seow is going to fail her compo at the rate she is going off point:))
and then i went online and played reversi with weiyun. it was practically nuts.
\i suck at that. dont ka jiao me.
then talk to a lot of people who sursprisingly were still awake at that time.
hmm. then i slept. duh,
hahha. im in mugging mode. yes but the problem is i have no time to mug. and i already lost one whole day to a stupid *********.
its not any vugaritles, so dont worry.
and i hope i can write after that if not im so going to murder anything i see. i speak the truth.
so watch out.
my mama saw my PPR. kind of unhappy with my maths.[guessed that]
when i told her i got A1 for both history and geography.
she unhappily shouted at me that i should have gotten A1 for science and maths.
wow. cant you be more. hmm. how to say.
its better to get one A1 rather than none. im happy.
thats all.
im not your ideal person.
i cant always reach your expectations.
give me a break yeah.
not that im complaining. but i thank you for giving so much chances
but even so. i have my limits.
this is all i can hold. dont push it too far.
haha. its back to full screen mugging mote.

black&white makes grey. @3:17 PM