today sucked like nothing else
well. just the morning to be exact.
but it affected my mood throughout the whole day.
i was practically not listening to any lessons including miss chan's one
and i didnt get anything into my head either.
i only stared at the clock which moves so stupidly slow.
i sucked.
i got HCL paper back today.
i didnt have a choice whether i wanted it or not.
it just come and the effect doesnt go.
no matter how hard i try, it ends up getting worse.
so whats the point of trying so hard and making your eyes go all heavy and your hands tired when all you get is a freaking **.
chinese WAS my best subject.
i rather lived in the past for 1 more second, and i will go treasure it cause
right now, my life is getting worse.
stupid HCL. why cant you just wait a little longer and let me get ovfer with the other tests before you go raiding my brain.
and i still have to face my mother. well. at the most.
i wont live to see tomorrow. erps.
and i wont have the urge to smile very often anymore. i dont see a reason to rejoice over my marks.
i'll just prepare for my funeral when PPR is return. ( i shouldn't be thinking so far)
anyways. thanks for the letter. the people sitting directly behind me.
i will write back. dont worry.
shoots. im owing people 7 letters in total.
but seriously, im not in the mood to write. the only thing that is swimming in my brain is the stupid HCL mark.
well. at least mugging today was peoductive. especially sitting in the sun and getting roasted.
wells. i might as well just bury my face into my pillow and throw my HCL paper out of the window.
so yeah. byebye
since its already that bad. i might as well just give up.
it doesnt reallly make a difference to me anymore.
does it?
i just know that i wont be enjoying the rest of it.
black&white makes grey. @1:16 AM
