it has been a horrible week.
for me.
3 tests in a row. gosh. sleeping 3 hours a day doesnt help much either.
im tired; sick;helpless
i thought of letting go everything and left it to...??
NO. but i shall not do that. im only a pathetic sec 1. i shall mug like mad.
i shall not fail anymore. i don't want to look at my paper and feel like tearing it up after that.
today was terrible.
i woke up to find out how late i was for school and that i havent studied for my tingxie.
i wanted to study in school. but gosh, i dont have the time.
so i endure the whole tingxie clueless to what luo lao shi was mumbling.
its so alien cause i didnt study and ended up having to strain my brain to get the words out.
be glad that i didnt hand up a blank piece of paper.
great. life has to contiune tortuing me.
maths.. my weakest subject.
im a gecko at almost every chapter. i have to struggle to understand one question while the rest
of the people have already move on with life.
i always struggle during maths lessons, not that its hard to understand but the problems lies
with my dumb small tiny brain that is not absorbent enough.
i dont want to go back to where i started out, as a primary six struggling to get the maths
concept in my brain and working like a mad fool to only get a pathetic 60/100-the marks are an
example.. ahaha
i dont want to struggle with maths.
i was so happy i got an A* for maths during PSLE. i thought it improve.
ya. it did, term1 and 2 were like, Maths is easy!
whoots, i pass every test with flying colours and i was never once disappointed at my marks.
term3 showed no mercy. i deproved. tests after tests i still failed. no matter how hard i slog my
brain out. i still failed. im still at the first step. i can never learn to climb.
i dont want to be that pathetic primary six kid i used to be. i want to get on with my life.
my maths will improve. it will, i promised.
thank you sandra for your encouragement.
trying hard to put a smile on my face. it seems hard to do that these few days. for now, let me
drift off to somewhere far away.
but band made my day.
i was happy there. haha. we learn SOUSA. and sursprisingly, i managed to learn finish the whole
thing. there isnt much range in the notes so its just the rhythm that im struggling with. time
pass faster today. i only run through the whole of sousa thrice and the bell rings!
boo. but i think that was enough for the day, my lips hurt.
heeps, then went to sijia's house and ended up walking to the prata shop to buy something.
ended up meeting the seniors. haha.
i just learned that sijia could become a bowl of curry. interesting.
then went back to sijia's house cause the seniors were interested with the drum set.
then talk talk laugh laugh and that was the end.
i of course started smiling again, my troubles seemed to fade away but i know that is will always
be there. its just tuck in a corner.
there's always a never-ending list of sadness hidden somewhere-what is there to
cry for then when you know that it will repeat again. someday somehow.
it's not like im sad or anything lar.. im hapy already. those were just what i thought when i
received my stupid test paper.
black&white makes grey. @12:28 AM
